Blog written by a young 30 yr old widow about starting over and the challenges a young widows faces. Tuesday, 13 September 2011. The Most Wonderful Time of the Year? Grief, loss, whatever people choose to call it, is a funny old thing.

A place to store resources for the young widow. What would he think? November 18, 2010. This is a real journey of ups and downs. I still feel sad, I feel guilty, I still miss him dreadfully, his scent, his touch, his kiss. I think about him every day. The days of crying through the night are over although the tears still flow. I do wonder what he would think of my life now. Would he be upset that I am moving forward without him? Would he be happy for me? Would he even like the new me? .

I have finally been coming to the realization that in order to really live my life as it is today, that I am going to have to be brave enough to be my own advocate. Maybe some of you out there are like me, a people pleaser. Yet, this really is not a good long-term plan. I have to be my own advocate.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010. Ten years ago this month, I met this girl from Massachusetts with a kind of funny accent. I can blink and see a trillion images of her and I through our ten years; or 8. 5 as I need to remind myself everyday. Soon I will have been widowed longer than I was married. Weird facts like that pop into my head too often.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011. My heart goes out to Japan. Today my heart goes out to the young widows and widowers who will be coping with this terrible tragedy. Monday, March 14, 2011. We got married in 2008. We had a beautiful wedding with over 300 guests. He wanted to expand our family right away, but I was more interested in stabiliz.